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#1 on My List: Make a List

May 8th, 2010 Secondhand Karl Comments off

So Thursday was another day for therapy, and the Matrix Therapist wants me to get out of the freaking house more often. And she wants me to make a list of things to do to GET me out of the house. Does she even KNOW me?

Matrix Therapist: What are the benefits of staying in the house all the time?

Me: Well, all my stuff is there.

MT: So you feel safe there.

Me: Yes, though it’s a weird kind of safe that still makes me feel miserable.

MT: So what are the benefits of you leaving the house?

Me: (shiver) I hear sunshine is good for you.

MT: Mmm, what else?

Me: Might distract me from my shitty life.

MT: Right.

Me: May introduce me to new people, though that prospect is kinda  scary, too.

MT: But there’s no pressure.

Me: That’s the whole thing about leaving the house. It’s ALL pressure. I’ll have to socialize.

MT: Yeah, because what you’re doing now is working so well. Listen, you have the depression down. We know that. You don’t need more practice at that.

Me: Finally, I’m good at something!

MT: Maybe you could take a walk around the lake. I did recently.

Me: A walk? Outside? How far is that?

MT: It’s about 9 miles.

Me: 9 MILES? Yeah, that’s gonna happen.

MT: Doesn’t have to be around the lake. You come up with some things that’ll get you out of the house. Make a list.

Me: I’m not great at lists. I’m great at depression, remember?

MT: That’s what we’re trying to fix, remember?

Me: Right. List.

MT: 10 things to get you out of the house.

Me: Number 1…therapy.

MT: Therapy doesn’t count.

Me: That’s not something a patient wants to hear.

Ten things have to go on this list. TEN. And, lest you forget, they must all involve me leaving the house.

  1. Make a list of 10 things to get me out of the house.
  2. Go to the movies.
  3. Go to the bookstore.
  4. Go to the gym.
  5. Go do karaoke.
  6. Go to a coffeeshop.
  7. Go to the library.
  8. Walk through the park (exercise).
  9. Walk through the mall (more exercise).
  10. Go to the lawnmower races.
  11. Take an art class.
  12. Go to church.

Wow, look at that. 12 things…well, minus the first item, of course. 11 things. Not all very exciting things. I mean, bookstore and library? I know, a thrill a minute with me.

Hey, I almost put down “smoking,” since I technically do that outside the house. But I figured the Matrix Therapist would just give me shit over that one, so…

Why does looking at this list strike my heart with fear?

--- Thanks for reading! SecondHand Tryptophan

random blatherings

May 6th, 2010 Secondhand Karl Comments off

Random blatherings.

I went to church again today. It’s weird. They say if you want to find God, the first step is always to be looking for Him. But the fastest way to find love, so they say, is to NOT be looking for it. Yet God IS love, so…

and some alternate universe just exploded

Again, I felt nothing. Just went on Autopilot, mostly. That’s one thing about going to a Catholic church (no matter which you choose): consistency. Mass is Mass, anywhere you go.

The priest doesn’t give sermons. I like a good sermon. Medium, please, just a teeny bit pink in the center.

Seriously, I think I need to hear something that speaks to me. A message from Above. No burning bush, please, that’d just piss off the neighbors. I’d totally take a visit from Roma Downey, but hey, I’d settle for a phone call or some IM’ing.

AlphaOmega42: Please press ‘1′ to pray for faith, press ‘2′ for inner peace, press ‘3′ for world peace, press ‘4′ for Other Requests…

Me: OMG, I finally get You online and You send me to voicemail hell. This is probably going to be answered in India somewhere.

AO42: Heh, just fucking with you, Karl.

Me: I KNEW IT! I *knew* You were fucking with me! The universe is laughing at me!

AO42: Not like *that* idjit.

I can’t believe I’m watching Glee. I think the Testosterone Society may revoke my testicular license.

Told you it was random.

- written on my iPhone

--- Thanks for reading! SecondHand Tryptophan

Desperate Times

May 3rd, 2010 Secondhand Karl Comments off

Desperate times call for desperate measures, so they say. Which is why I found myself today at church. It’s been so long, I expected a Monty-Pythonesque Finger of God to come out of the clouds and squash me like a bug before I could enter the building. No such luck.

God only knows the last time I went to confession. Oops, I mean reconciliation. I have enough material to cause a priest’s ears to spew smoke with the sound of a 1,000 pressure cookers going off at once.

But I need help, and something tells me God already knows all my shit, so I took a chance and went, anyway. Maybe 10 people were at Mass, whole thing lasted 20 minutes, which is like SpeedMass or something.

I got there about 10 minutes early, so I could reacquaint myself. See, God and I have a very tenuous relationship. My doing, not His. Like the story goes, I’ve been rather distant from God. God’s answer: “Well, guess who moved?” Yeah, that’d be me.

I don’t feel Him at all these days. Used to, a lot. Nowadays, I’m too busy being miserable to notice Him. I feel like God’s Punching Bag.

So I did the proper standing, kneeling, sitting, standing again things. Took the Eucharist and hoped for miraculous healing. Did my best to pray in my head (“God, I know it’s been a long time, but Holy Crap, do I need help so please do Your thing and erase all the bad shit in my head and make me feel better…”) but heard no response.

And when I walked out of the church and got back in my car, I felt no improvement…just the furnace heat that Florida is producing of late.  Then I heard this song come on my iPod:

Who says God doesn’t have a sense of humor?

--- Thanks for reading! SecondHand Tryptophan

Have you been naughty or nice?

December 23rd, 2009 Avitable Comments off

It's almost Christmas, and Santa has been checking his list, trying to see who's getting coal and who's not. It's also time to steal a page from Snackie's book, and open up the comments for HOLIDAY CONFESSIONS!

Did you ever steal someone's present? Have you regifted? Have you ever masturbated into the punch at the company party?

You can confess whatever holiday-related (or not) sin you want, no matter how small or how momentous. Confess something that you'd never post on your own blog – you don't have to worry about your readers seeing it here. Confess something that you've just wanted to get off of your chest. Confess something that you don't really care about. If you want to leave your comment anonymously, make sure to change your email address, too, so that Gravatar doesn't pick up your avatar.

I'll start:

Confession #1: I have, on occasion, given presents to people that increased in value depending on how much I liked them.

Confession #2: One year, I, along with a few friends, roamed our neighborhood and the neighborhood next to ours and pulled out a few random bulbs on people's lights, causing all their lights to go out, stole candy canes or lighted bulbs that lined their walkways, and broke the floating lit up Christmas trees in the lake. I feel bad every time I think about it.

Confession #3: I figured out that there was no Santa when I was four, and I always delighted in the fact that my brother and sister took much, much longer to figure it out.

Confession #4: I would consider converting to Judaism just for the potato latkes.

Okay, it's your turn. Let's hear it!

Unburden your soul

September 10th, 2009 Avitable Comments off

Church of Holy Avitableness

As most of you know, I have my own church – The Church of Holy Avitableness.

We don't do mass. There's no collection plate. We don't have a church building. There are no vestments. I don't even have a Holy Book!

What we do have, though, is CONFESSION.

It's good for the soul. It's good for the heart. It's downright good for you.

And today on Avitable.com is Confession Day.

Today's comments are for confessions. You don't have to be specific. You can log out and confess as Anonymous. You can confess whatever sin you want, no matter how small or how momentous. Confess something that you'd never post on your own blog – you don't have to worry about your readers seeing it here. Confess something that you've just wanted to get off of your chest. Confess something that you don't really care about. You can make it a general confession about a sin, or you can make it a specific confession to a specific person who can remain nameless or be named.

It doesn't matter. Just confess.

I'll start:

Confession #1:

I totally stole this idea from Hilly.

Confession #2:

I once killed a koi pond full of fish by dumping gasoline in it, when I was a kid.

Confession #3:

I probably think I'm better than you.

Okay, it's your turn. Let's hear it!

Weaker brothers (and sisters)

August 5th, 2009 Aaron Smith Comments off

UPDATE: Be sure to check out Bob’s comment. Its a good response to balance out who actually *is* a weaker brother/sister.

kellerwarning Bob Hyatt posted this to twitter Monday morning (link here, if you really need to read it).

Quick synopsis: a “discernment blog” looked at an interview of Tim Keller and decided that he has/is giving up the true gospel in favor of some liberalized form of spirituality that they see cropping up everywhere in the American church.

(For those who don’t know, “discernment blogs” specialize in pointing out what they see as errors in other Christians beliefs, practices, and teachings. Basically, they have taken it upon them selves to guard their version of Biblical Christianity, declare it as the only real Christianity, and to denounce any and all who disagree with them.)

I really get fed up with these “defenders of the one true faith” running around and deciding who is in with Jesus and who isn’t. Usually, my initial reaction to these kind of blogs and articles is anger and dismissal.

But today, I was prompted to think about 1 Corinthians 8.

A while back, the Evergreen community (my church) walked through the book if 1 Corinthians. We saw how Paul kept urging and arguing for unity within the Corinth church. He appealed first and foremost to the fact that the church was/is Christ’s church, not Paul’s, not Appolos’, not Peter’s, and not some ’super apostles’ either. The church was created by Jesus, equipped by Jesus, and made whole by Jesus as he worked in/through the individual people who together made up his church.

One of the direct implications of this truth is how we who try and live life in the way of Jesus treat others who are trying to live out this Jesus life. Paul addresses several issues of how we live and worship together in this letter.

A major concern in Corinth was eating meat. More specifically, some people in the church were having a hard time eating any meat that was bought in the common marketplace because it had probably mostly for sure been taken from an animal that had been sacrificed in worship to an idol or other god. These people were trying to follow Jesus, so its understandable (and right) that they didn’t want to have anything to do with worship to something other than Jesus.

That wouldn’t have been that big a deal (maybe just a church of vegetarians), except that not everyone had the same concerns. Some members of the church in Corinth had no problem eating meat that might have come from some other religious ceremony. In fact, they were so unconcerned about it that if they went somewhere for dinner and the host flat out told them what idol of god the meat was sacrificed for, they would just dig right in unconcerned in any way. For them, it was just meat. Offering it to an idol meant nothing because they saw Jesus as the only true god. Any one/thing else was empty and meant nothing.

So, there was a debate; which side was right? Should we be extra cautious so as not to take part in anything that has to do with worship to another god, or should we relish in the knowledge that idols are worthless and we eat to the glory of the only true god regardless of from whom or where the meat comes from?

Paul puts it like this:

1Now concerning food sacrificed to idols: we know that ‘all of us possess knowledge.’ Knowledge puffs up, but love builds up…4 Hence, as to the eating of food offered to idols, we know that ‘no idol in the world really exists’, and that ‘there is no God but one.’… 6 for us there is one God, the Father, from whom are all things and for whom we exist, and one Lord, Jesus Christ, through whom are all things and 7 It is not everyone, however, who has this knowledge. Since some have become so accustomed to idols until now, they still think of the food they eat as food offered to an idol; and their conscience, being weak, is defiled. 8‘Food will not bring us close to God.’ We are no worse off if we do not eat, and no better off if we do. 9But take care that this liberty of yours does not somehow become a stumbling-block to the weak. 10For if others see you, who possess knowledge, eating in the temple of an idol, might they not, since their conscience is weak, be encouraged to the point of eating food sacrificed to idols? 11So by your knowledge those weak believers for whom Christ died are destroyed. 12But when you thus sin against members of your family, and wound their conscience when it is weak, you sin against Christ. 13Therefore, if food is a cause of their falling, I will never eat meat, so that I may not cause one of them to fall.

Taken from the NRSV

1 Corinthians 8 is a passage I have heard preached and taught about most of my life. To be honest, its always been troublesome to me. Inevitably, the comparison is made to drinking or watching R rated movies or listening to ’secular’ music or some other issue of ‘morality’ and personal sensibility.

That has never felt like a completely correct fit for this passage.

Ya, I don’t want to offend other Christians with the way I live my life (usually), but is the modern day comparison of meat sacrificed to idols really weather or not I listen to ‘Christian radio’ exclusively? Is it really a matter of weaker conscious for someone with an alcohol problem if I order a beer with my dinner?

Paul seems to be dealing with not a morality issue (well, not here anyways) but rather a worship issue.
Some people had come from a history where idols carried weight in there life. In trying to leave an old life behind, shed an old belief system and embrace the truth of Christ and gospel, they were still in the habit of thinking (believing) that an idol or another god really was something to worry about. ‘I worship Christ! How can you ask me to eat meat that has been blessed in reverence to Diana?’

Paul urges people with out these convictions, people with stronger consciences, people who knew better to not be pride full and arrogant bastards with their knowledge. Rather, they were called to love their weaker brothers and sisters and to not exercise the freedom that their knowledge granted in ways that would cause the weaker in the community to stumble.

So, how can I who knows better actually love my weaker brothers and sisters who don’t have the same freed conscious I do?

These ‘discernment blogs’ are just one of the many voices I hear telling me about boundaries I should have in my spiritual life. I shouldn’t do contemplative prayer, meditation, or use prayer beads. I should dress sharper, not get tattoos, piercings, or have long hair. I shouldn’t use ‘bad language’, listen to ’secular music’, drink or read most of the books I do.

Rhetoric like that pisses me off… but if I take a step back, I can hear them really telling me not to eat meat. See, most people who take up this kind of speech (most) are doing so out of concern for how Christians should be living and worshiping Jesus.

It’s a worship issue.

Personally, I see that tattoos, piercings, ‘bad words’, music, dress, types of meditation, different spiritual practices, etc… is usually not a big deal at all. They do nothing detrimental to my worship of Jesus. They are empty in and of them selves, and can actually become something filled with the light and life of Christ.

But, not everyone shares my stronger conscious. So, what can I do to love them, and not just get pissed off and dismiss them as meaningless quacks (although some are)?

I think this is a question we emerging Church types need to really wrestle with more than we have. What does it mean/look like to love our brothers and sisters whose conscious does not give them the liberties we have?

Posted in General Rants Tagged: Bible, Church, God thoughts/ God walks, Jesus, Kingdom Themes, questions, teaching, Theology

What the Atonement Did

April 18th, 2009 Aaron Smith Comments off

This is a condensed version of the ‘What the Atonement Did” series i wrote a few years back. This version appeared in the March 2007 edition of Next-Wave.

We evangelical Christians talk a lot about atonement stories, throwing out theories of penal substitution, ransom, recapitulation, and so on. These are all good, but, this is all talk about the mechanics of salvation: how it works… how God did what He did… how we are forgiven.

The hows are important to think about, but they must not replace the what: what Jesus’ sacrifice did… what it accomplishes in our lives… what hope it makes real to us.

If that last paragraph seems nebulous, let me put it this way: we talk a lot about how the car works (the parts and their functions, the gas millage it gets, the way internal combustion works inside the engine, etc…) but we are scarcely talking about why the car was made in the first place, namely to transport us around.

Maybe it’s just me; maybe everyone else is hearing conversations about what atonement is and not just how it works. All I know is a very important word seems to be missing from our speech when it comes to verbalizing the atonement: reconciliation.

In 2 Corinthians 5.18-21, this is the word Paul chooses to define the service God has given him (and us) to do. Paul’s entire proclamation of the good news is centered upon God reconciling us and the world to himself (2 Corinthians 3.4-18). This is the “what” that the atonement accomplished, this is salvation. I want to look specifically at two texts that can help us focus on what atonement accomplished as we continue to explore and talk about the different atonement theories/stories.

Simon Peter’s Second sermon (Acts 3.1-26)

Tragedy does not process well. We constantly need a reason that bad things happen, be they hurricane, the death of a loved one, or a baby born into this world broken in a physical way. To our minds, these things are judgments from God because of some misconduct. One of the clearest expressions of this type of thinking is the question posed by the disciples when they encountered a man born blind: “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?” (John 9.2)  Jesus responds to this compulsion to declare others unworthy with story (Luke 18.9-14) and deed (John 9.3-41), and exposes it as the ungodliness it truly is.

Just outside the gateway into the temple, Peter and John find a man whom I’m sure plenty of people who passed by him every day keep thinking about what sin he or his parents must have committed in order to be judged in such a tragic way. He is a physically broken man, and this brokenness keeps him from entering the temple to pray with the rest of the people of God.

Peter addresses the man and gives him the reality of the power of the glorified Christ. What more dynamic way to announce “Yahweh has reconciled man to Himself” than to take away what people see as a separation from God due to some “unworthiness”? This is more than just some “power evangelism” tactic. It is an acting out of the invitation for all who are spiritually broken to come and be friends with this God who has reconciled man to Himself (2 Corinthians 5.20-21).

Peter’s first words to the astonished crowed stand in stark contrast to the notion that man’s power and piety earn God’s favor. This once broken man now leaps in praise only because of Jesus, the God-man. Faith in the authority, total character, and work of Jesus Christ is the only reason this man now has perfect health (vs 16). Make no mistake: it is all about Jesus, and  Peter and John are no more than ambassadors on behalf of Jesus. Their message is from Jesus and the deeds done are an extension and affirmation of all that he has accomplished: reconciliation.

The core of the evangelistic (think proclamation of good tidings, not proselytizing) call to respond to the name and work of Jesus is found in the call to repent (vs 17-21).  These verses give us the heart of reconciliation: God has come not to bridge the gap between us and He, but rather to erase the chasm all together (blotting our sins out), bring us new life (times of refreshing), and to include us in the shalom He is establishing (the time for restoring all things). This is offered for all who will repent and turn to God, and this is exactly what Paul is talking about in 2 Corinthians 5.18-19. Simon’s second speech (and the miracle that sparks it) points us toward the reality of reconciliation. It gives us a picture of the reconciliation that the person and action of Jesus actually accomplished.

John’s definition of love (1 John 4.7-21)

A life that has been reconciled to God is called to commune with other people in a way that teaches the world the shalom that God originally established. To put it another way, we who have been reconciled to God  are those now called to love-one another.

Genesis 1.31 records God as looking over the finished work of creation, complete with the crown jewel of humanity, and being satisfied and pleased. Adam and Eve lived deeply with God and had a whole relationship with Him and each other. The fact that there was community between people was and essential part of God’s very good creation. Everything was as it was suppose to be… for at least a few lines of the story. Then the original shalom was broken, and from Genesis 3.6 on the situation we find ourselves in is where reconciliation is needed. (3.6-8) Our first action in this state of need is ashamedness and fear: we are ashamed of our naked self before other humans and we now fear the presence and intimacy of Yahweh.

Unashamed nakedness in the Genesis story is not about clothing. It is about acceptance, or (more accurately) communion in love with others. See, before the need of reconciliation, man and woman were naked and unashamed. Moments after entering the state of sin, they were self aware of the exclusion they risked in others eyes. The need to hide our nakedness is a self-oriented awareness that will attack others when their nakedness and flaws show in the hopes that no one will notice how naked and flawed I am. We hide. We point and blame. We excuse and justify ourselves, all in hopes that someone else will suffer exclusion so that we can still be OK, still be accepted (Genesis 3.9-13). This is the state of companionship humans now share, and this is not what God called good. We were not meant to engage in this self serving posturing trying to preserve what good image we think we have fooled man and God into seeing.
Agape is God’s answer to both issues raised in the garden: ashamedness and fear.

Loving-one-another is God’s command to His people. We do not do this based off of a small idea of love, as if it was a warm fuzzy or some stoic action of discipline “for their own good”. We are called to love-one-another as God has loved us. The word for this is agape, and it has been displayed before us in the death of the incarnate Son of God: Jesus the Christ. Loving-one-another is equated with knowing and loving God. Loving-one-another is the reconciled response to the ashamedness before others and is based upon the manifestation of agape that is Jesus’ accomplishment of the reconciliation of us to God.
Just as our fig loin cloths did nothing to heal our ashamedness, hiding could never take away the fear we have of intimacy with Yahweh. We were made to abide in Him and to have Him abide in us. This cannot ever happen if we fear.  So, Jesus reconciles us to God, and that reconciliation ushers us into the reality of the un-earned, relentless love that Yahweh has toward humanity. John is urging us to stay here, to abide in this agape. Put down your bags, take off your coat, and just stay for this is the home you were created for. Fear? There’s no place for that here.

We fear intimacy with God because He is judge and we know it. I can’t even handle judgment from people, let alone God excluding me from His table. And this is the heart of our fear: exclusion.

Adam hid in the garden God had planted for him because he couldn’t face up to the fact that he was cut off and had no place to abide. He tried to pawn his exclusion off on Eve by passing the blame in hopes that judgment would fall on her instead. She in turn passed it off to the snake, and we all have been passing around the blame ever since. We saw Peter address this sinful human habit in Acts 3 and here John whispers hope to our hungry hearts.

Jesus accomplished reconciliation between God and man. In other words, there is nothing to fear because Jesus took our sins away, opened the way to our only true home, and made us friends with the Most High God!

We have nothing to fear because God is not waiting to punish us for our bad deeds, and neither is He waiting to see if we are good enough to get into the cool kid clique. He is offering us what he created us to have: intimacy with our creator. This is reconciliation; It is the imposable-to-earn, relentless love that Yahweh has for you, me, and everyone who has ever had the spark of life. When we are talking about how salvation works, we can’t ever forget that salvation is based only and completely upon the agape Yahweh has for us.

In the passage we started with, Paul told us that the only message we have to proclaim is this: God has reconciled man to Himself, therefore we entreat you to become a friend of God. We have seen how Simon Peter demonstrates the reality of this reconciliation and invites people to come and take part in it. John spoke to us about the reason God reconciled man to Himself. He told us God’s agape casts out our fear, bringing us intimately close to God, and that we should therefore agape one another.

This all is a really big deal. If we choose to ignore it we are choosing to ignore the hope Abba God has been whispering to us ever since the garden. Reconciliation is about relationship: restored deep, whole, and healthy relationship with Yahweh and the first bloomings of unashamed, naked relationships with other people. This is what the atonement accomplished. We must reorient our hearts and minds to embrace the whole picture of “what the atonement accomplished” rather than just the myopic view(s) of “how atonement works”.

Still, we can never lose sight of the atoning sacrifice that is Jesus. If in our eagerness to embrace reconciliation we skip over Jesus’ death and resurrection, we do injustice to the very idea of reconciliation, and choose to embrace the injustice of universalism. If we decentralize the Cross of Christ in any way, we quickly find ourselves off balance and out of step with Abba’s dance of salvation. The relationship reconciliation brings about is only possible because of the atonement.

Peter, Paul, and John all saw it: Jesus’ death did something that can only be described as salvation. To truly believe in the reality of God’s reconciliation of man to Himself is to embrace Jesus as the reason we can stand in this grace. It is to shout praises no matter the sufferings we face because of the hope poured into us through the Holy Ghost. And what is this hope? This hope is that just as the blood of Christ (Jesus’ death on the cross) has wiped us clean from sin, the reality that Jesus now lives gives us blessed assurance that we are at peace with our Abba God, who is steadfast love but does not leave injustice unpunished (Exodus 34.5-8).

This is the only/best hope of all! Take this truth deep into your heart: while you were an enemy of God and had nothing to offer and no ability to offer anything anyways, Yahweh did the unthinkable: He acted where you couldn’t! You couldn’t make yourself right with Him, so God Himself made you right with Him by dying so that you would live, and then living again to give you the hope of a life that is forever in friendship with God. This is what Paul means when he stated “Jesus our Lord… who was handed over to death for our trespasses and was raised for our justification”. This is what Jesus our atonement sacrifice did so that you and I and all humanity might be reconciled with God.

The entire scope of reconciliation is huge, yet it all rests on one man: Jesus, our atoning sacrifice. We cannot ever divorce reconciliation from the event that caused reconciliation to be real. Like wise, we cannot become so convinced that we can box the atonement into our explanation of its mechanics that we forget what Jesus did for us while we are still in our weakness. Jesus is our hope, and it is through Him alone that we boast, sing praises, shout, and keep in a general state of Hallelujah to the Glory of Yahweh, our Abba God.

Posted in General Rants Tagged: Church, God, God thoughts/ God walks, Hope, Jesus, Kingdom Themes, old posts revisited, Theology, What the atonement did

DIvine Commodity blog tour

April 16th, 2009 Aaron Smith Comments off

Skye Jethani has a new book out there: The Divine Commodity.

Today he is on a blog tour (complete list of blogs and radio spots can be found here).

Bob Hyatt has started what looks to be a good conversation with Skye. You should stop by and add your thoughts and questions.

Also be sure to check out a couple of my favorite blogs that Skye is also visitiong today:

Posted in General Rants Tagged: and Readings, Books, Church, Clicks, links, Pics

St Patrick’s Shield

April 16th, 2009 Aaron Smith Comments off

I bind unto myself today the strong name of the trinity,
by invocation of the same, the Three in One, the One in Three.

I bind this day to me forever by power of faith Christ’s incarnation,
His baptism in the Jordan river, his death on the cross for my salvation;
His bursting from the spiced tomb, his riding up the heavenly way,
His coming at the day of doom I bind unto myself today.

I bind unto myself today the power of God to hold and lead,
His eye to watch, his might to stay, his ear to harken to my need,
The wisdom of my God to teach, his hand to guide, his shield to ward,
The Word of God to give me speech, his heavenly host to be my guard.

Christ be with me, Christ within me,
Christ behind me, Christ before me,
Christ beside me, Christ to win me;
Christ to comfort and restore me;
Christ beneath me, Christ above me,
Christ in quiet, Christ in danger,
Christ in hearts of all that love me,
Christ in mouth of friend and stranger.

I bind unto myself the name, the strong name of the Trinity,
By invocation of the same, the Three in One, and One in Three,
Of whom all nature hath creation, eternal Father, Spirit, Word;
Praise to the God of my salvation, salvation is of Christ the Lord!

-St. Patrick

St. Patrick’s Shield is a prayer I have often come back to. It is at once a confession of faith, a admission of hope and need, and a cry for God to sustain us.

A few weeks ago (around St Patrick’s day), I put this prayer to music. It is totally a home recording, complete with bathroom singing and all.

St Patrick’s Shield- music by Aaron J Smith

Posted in General Rants Tagged: and other things, Books, Church, Church Year, Music, Prayers, Stuff, Theology

The Coming Evangelical Collapse

March 10th, 2009 Aaron Smith Comments off

The Internet Monk (Michael Spenser) has a great article in the Christian Science Monitor (on-line and in print): The Coming Evangelical Collapse. It’s a great piece, really good food for thought.

His article (actually allot of his blogging) has led me to two conclusions:

  • I’m not ready to give up being an evangelical yet. There are some good things about this tradition that I think can and need to be salvaged from the “circus”: Gospel driven, personal experience of faith and conversion, a life transformed by the power of the spirit, being founded in the Bible not tradition. These things need to be celebrated and liberated from all the other crap. Everything else, the individualization of faith, the moralist thinking and culture war, idolizing the Bible, the lack of good kingdom theology (or good theology in general)… these things need to be thrown off and left to die.

  • I’m not ready to give up on the emerging church yet. I really think that there has been much methodological reform birthed from the this movement and discussion. But, I think that most of the discussion has become solely about our church methods and our presence in social justice. Good parts of the discussion, but not all of the discussion at all. There needs to be a re-thinking of theology, a theological reform. I believe that the emerging church discussion/movement can and should be the catalyst to that. And I don’t believe it’s too late

More on this later… when I get my brain a bit more ordered.

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